First of all, I woke up extremely tired because I was given a shot to cure my flu symptoms but how some side affects to it. The only side affect that affected me was the insomnia. Due to that, I got no sleep the entire night or morning so I got up and got dressed very tired. My first day back to campus after the Christmas break was today. I was so excited to be back on campus that everything around me made me appreciate my school. I happily went to the computer lab to print out my four page paper which was due today, everything went well with that, it was a very successful print. Okay so I figure since I'm doing better and my flu feel like it leaving, why not get a Frappacino. What a huge mistake. I drank the frappacino with no problems. Later, after I was leaving English class, I went by the business office to sign my promissary note, after I left there, I made a stop by the financial aid office. To my surprise, I was told that I was due to get a refund check next friday. I was so ecstatic! I was happy to say the least. It never dawned on me that all I needed to do was sign a couple pieces of paper to get a much needed check.
Happy with my check, I went back to my dorm room wearing all smiles. Soon the frappicino started to affect me. I felt sick to my stomach and for some reason I felt as if my insides were exploding. I was so sick on the stomach, as I made it to the bathroom, vomit went everywhere. I was way too sick to drink a frappicino so early after my healing of the flu. Still I didn't vomit it all up so I still had an extremely sour stomach but I went on with my day. Next, I headed back to the computer lab to type my paper on Autism. That went well, great paper, in just a couple of minutes. Happily I stepped out of the library all to find that it was raining. To say the least, I was soaking wet and had to change clothes. Mind you, I'm still a little sick and the last thing that needed to happen was me getting caught in the rain. I still took this gesture with a smile on my face. I stepped out of my room long enough to use the restroom, leaving my keys and purse in the room. As I returned from the restroom, I noticed the door was locked and my roommate was long gone. I texted her and told her my problem and she hurriedly came to let me in. I was so thankful for her gesture.
I paitently waited for my friends to get ready so that we could enjoy a lunch together, it would be the first one in a long time. I was so happy to see all my friends. My stomach would only allow me to eat a salad so I got just that and a cup of orange juice. As I sat down to enjoy my salad my full cup on Orange juice wasted all over my favorite dark blue jeans. I sadly had to walk all the way back to my dorm room in the cold to change my pants. I quickly changed and headed back to the cafe still too embarassed. We ate, laughed, joked and caught up on everything I missed. I guess I was enjoying the lunch way too much because I completely forgot that my class started a 2:25 and it was now 2:30. I gathered my things in a hurry and went to class. Only to find out that the 3 page paper I did on Autism was only supposed to be 1 measly page. what a horrible day!
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Unknown Guy (cont.)
Okay, so the unknown guy is still around and he's everything I want in a boyfriend right now. The hard part is me actually getting him. I don't know how this is gonna work out. Everything started off great like I knew it would, I recieved good morning text messages every single morning as well as good night messages for about a week straight. He would even send little cute message to make me blush. I remember the day he wanted to see me before he went to study hall, it made me feel so good to know that he was feeling me as much as I was feeling him. I texted more often and even attempted to call on occassions. I had this guy right where I wanted him and I was loving every single solitary minute of it. It seemed like a wonderfu guy and I just wanted to be around him all the time.
Between the week that we meet and the following, everything started to change, the text messages stopped coming and the daily hugs I recieved from him stopped coming as well. I don't know what went wrong to this very day but I wish I could get it all back, I want this guy in my life or at least I think so right now. I know he's not perfect but the days we talked, it seemed that way. I want to so bad to get back on the level we were on but i'm so confused as to how this can be done. I wish I could read his mind for one day to see how he really feels and to see if I'm just more crazy over him then I should be. Boys are extremely confusing but I must say that this situation is the most confusing. I can see this guy now and he'll speak but I want so much more. I think we both deserve more, we could do each other some good.
Maybe my best bet will be to let things fall into play and not worry about the situation so much but it's extremely hard not too. How can everything be so perfect for a couple weeks and then change over time. I'm so freaky curious, I've racked my brain to try and figure out every possible thing I could to put the pieces together and i'm still clueless. I want this guy in my life FOR REAL but I don't know what measure I should take. I've never been the type to chase the dude and I don't plan to start but I do want answers and quick.
Between the week that we meet and the following, everything started to change, the text messages stopped coming and the daily hugs I recieved from him stopped coming as well. I don't know what went wrong to this very day but I wish I could get it all back, I want this guy in my life or at least I think so right now. I know he's not perfect but the days we talked, it seemed that way. I want to so bad to get back on the level we were on but i'm so confused as to how this can be done. I wish I could read his mind for one day to see how he really feels and to see if I'm just more crazy over him then I should be. Boys are extremely confusing but I must say that this situation is the most confusing. I can see this guy now and he'll speak but I want so much more. I think we both deserve more, we could do each other some good.
Maybe my best bet will be to let things fall into play and not worry about the situation so much but it's extremely hard not too. How can everything be so perfect for a couple weeks and then change over time. I'm so freaky curious, I've racked my brain to try and figure out every possible thing I could to put the pieces together and i'm still clueless. I want this guy in my life FOR REAL but I don't know what measure I should take. I've never been the type to chase the dude and I don't plan to start but I do want answers and quick.
MYSPACE.COM
I am addicted to Myspace. I was first introduced to myspace my sophomore year in high school and I've loved it ever since. It allows you to show so much spirit and emotion, people can tell from your myspace page basically what type of person you are. I enjoy decorating my page. It usually takes me about 2 days to complete a myspace page. I put my all into my page because I want people to know exactly how i'm feeling at the time. Sometimes myspace can tell more than it's meant to and from my past expirences has caused drama but I appreciate the site. It's one of the few places that I can be myspace and let my personality rock. Many people who meet me on myspace get to know the real me before they actually know me and I think it's one of the things that make the site so great. I think Tom was a genius for inventing the site and as long as people like myself support it, i think it'll be up and running for years. The site allows you to meet new people and gain life long friends and I hold it dear to me. I can sit on the computer for hours on myspace even though after I'm done i'll have a migraine. It's all worth it and i'm thankful for the free spritted website. You don't have to hide who you are, you can be yourself and still make your page so that it fits only you.
Photography!
My favorite past time is photography. I take pictures all day long, spure of the moment type stuff. No matter how i'm feeling, pictures always take my mind off my troubles. My family has grown accoustom to my need to take pictures all the time; it has become a family thing. I also love to change the pictures from black to white and add animations that illustrate greatness. Pictures are worth a thousand words and I think all moments should be captured so one can hold on to lost memories.
I've always loved to smile but it wasn't until this past Christmas that I became upset with taking pictures. I can't make it through the day without taking a least one picture, it just doesn't seem right. What is life without pictures. I don't like planned pictures all the time, I think off guard shots are better. When people don't expect their picture to be taken, it makes everything so much better.
I've always loved to smile but it wasn't until this past Christmas that I became upset with taking pictures. I can't make it through the day without taking a least one picture, it just doesn't seem right. What is life without pictures. I don't like planned pictures all the time, I think off guard shots are better. When people don't expect their picture to be taken, it makes everything so much better.
Thanksgiving Break
This year, Thanksgiving break wasn't the best but I was thankful. Our break begun on Tuesday, November 25. We weren't due back to school until that following Monday. The break wasn't too long but I was just happy to be out of school. On Tuesday, I left for Jackson to go to my cousin's high school basketball game against their known rivials. My mom, my cousin and myself left around 3 o'clock to go to Jackson for the game that would start at 7 o'clock. We all packed over night bags because we knew our stay their could be long. The game was such a good game. My cousin's team was always leading but the other team was close behind. The fans cheered, the referees cheated but the game went on. At the end, my cousin's team graciously accecpted their bragging rights and walked out of the gym full of confidence.
The next day my aunt had a bad episode with the flu. The week prior to our visit, she went to the doctor and was told that she had the flu. She could not move and wasn't doing too well at all. We could all tell she was unable to drive so we had to stay in Jackson another day. Instead of leaving early Wednesday as planned, we later had to change our plans to Thursday morning, the day of Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving was okay but I didn't get to spend anytime with family or eat thanksgiving food.
Sadly by Friday night I was catching the flu from my aunt and now how the very distinctive symptoms. I was extremely miseralbe and wasn't able to spend the remainder of my break with my family but the rest of my break was spent in the bed with the studpid flu. I am still very thankful for everybody in my life and happy that I was living to see my family and friends on that day.
The next day my aunt had a bad episode with the flu. The week prior to our visit, she went to the doctor and was told that she had the flu. She could not move and wasn't doing too well at all. We could all tell she was unable to drive so we had to stay in Jackson another day. Instead of leaving early Wednesday as planned, we later had to change our plans to Thursday morning, the day of Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving was okay but I didn't get to spend anytime with family or eat thanksgiving food.
Sadly by Friday night I was catching the flu from my aunt and now how the very distinctive symptoms. I was extremely miseralbe and wasn't able to spend the remainder of my break with my family but the rest of my break was spent in the bed with the studpid flu. I am still very thankful for everybody in my life and happy that I was living to see my family and friends on that day.
Boys Basketball Season
I am a die-heart basketball fan. I look forward to watching the games every year. I love basketball with everything in me, there is not another sport that can add up. There is just something about the way the ball is shaped, the way the uniforms fit and the air of the players themselves. Basketball players stand out more than any other players. They carry themselves in a laid back type way and I am just in love with their Million dollar Swagger that they uphold. It may seem crazy but I don't think life would be life without basketball.
No matter what sport a person may play, they still always make time for a game of basketball every now and then. Everybody can't play basketball though, it definitely a blessing. The sport shows undeniable talent and it's easy to catch your attention. What is life without basketball? I could watch boys play basketball all day long, I guess it's just in my blood. I grew up in a family who loved sports and basketball was at the top of the list. Everyone in my family played basketball while they were in high school and was great at the sport. All except for me, I may not know how to shoot a basket but I know all the rules and I enjoy the heck out of the game.
Basketball season for the Eagles is going great. They've only lost two games so far. The talent is awesome and everybody knows what their doing. The leading scorer Jeremy Wise is a dynamic player. He's a team player and he certainly knows how to control the ball. At 6 foot 4 his skills may just lead him to the pros. Craig Craft, Courtney Beasley, R.L Horton and Andre Stephans are also great players. The team is the "BEST" in my book. The sport is dynamic and it's a pleasure to watch.
No matter what sport a person may play, they still always make time for a game of basketball every now and then. Everybody can't play basketball though, it definitely a blessing. The sport shows undeniable talent and it's easy to catch your attention. What is life without basketball? I could watch boys play basketball all day long, I guess it's just in my blood. I grew up in a family who loved sports and basketball was at the top of the list. Everyone in my family played basketball while they were in high school and was great at the sport. All except for me, I may not know how to shoot a basket but I know all the rules and I enjoy the heck out of the game.
Basketball season for the Eagles is going great. They've only lost two games so far. The talent is awesome and everybody knows what their doing. The leading scorer Jeremy Wise is a dynamic player. He's a team player and he certainly knows how to control the ball. At 6 foot 4 his skills may just lead him to the pros. Craig Craft, Courtney Beasley, R.L Horton and Andre Stephans are also great players. The team is the "BEST" in my book. The sport is dynamic and it's a pleasure to watch.
Relationship Problems
Okay, so I've never been that great in the dating department but as one gets older, they want somethings to change. First of all let me give you some background information on my dating situations, at age 16 I was more ready than every to date; however, I was told by both of my parents that I just wasn't ready but that they would give me a shot once I turned 17. Great, or so I thought. At age 17, I started dating my first boyfriend. He was sweet and the perfect gentleman but I knew something had to be wrong. I am an extremely shy person before I get to know people but once I know you, I come around. Well this guy was a lot like myself, we were both shy and didn't know how to cope with the situation. Since the guy was older, I thought he would have a little more experience but boy was I wrong. He hardly ever said a word and believe it or not, I talked more than he did. This relationship was just not working so I ended it without having second thought. I still wonder how things would be now if I would've held on but I honestly think 6 months was ample enough time to be comfortable around your significant other.
Then there was Mr.Cheater himself. I met this guy my sophomore year in high school. I heard stories about this guy since I was in junior high and I promised myself that I would never get involved with a guy like him. Boy was I sadly mistaken again. This guy was best friends with my first cousin, he told him that he liked me and wanted me to give him a chance. I thought long and hard trying to be stern with my decision but I was soon suckered into him when he made a surprise visit to my home on the day of USM's homecoming 2006. He stood in my mother's living room begging her to allow him to date me also promising that he would never hurt me. What a lie! We started talking in late September just as friends and before you knew it we were going on a date. The date went well and I had more fun then I would have ever imagined. The following day, he asked me to be his girlfriend. With a lot of hesitation, I finally agreed. I was happy with my boyfriend and proud as ever. This guy had me on Cloud 99 and no matter what he did, I could see no wrong. He swept me off my feet, soon telling me the three words that my ears longed to hear, "I Love You". I knew we would be together forever, I was truly in love and no one could tell me other wise. Everything was just great, that is until his ex-girlfriends got involved. I was told that he was still "dating" her. I had always felt in my heart that there was a possibility but I refused to believe it. A couple months later, the ex became pregnant, swearing that my boyfriend was the father. Like any other person would, I removed myself from the relationship, never looking back. I never received closure and still to this day wonder, "what if"? I can't believe I was so blind but you live and you learn and I hold this experience close and would never forget the trouble and drama this relationship brought me.
After the cheating relationship, I didn't date again until I graduated from high school. This relationship didn't last long either. I was dating a high school junior who had no freedom what so ever. I can't say I was in love with him but more so infatuated with the fact that i was more experienced than my companion. I felt so much older and more mature but the relationship soon got boring. I had grown accustomed to going out on dates every weekend and spending time with my boyfriend's but this relationship was completely different. We never talked on the phone, went on dates or saw each other for long. The only time I would see him was in my 4Th period Child Development class that we both had together. So, like all my other relationships, I ended this one never looking back. I don't wonder about this one because I was merely attracted to the guy and the phase I was in when I liked him ended quickly. As I look back on my dating problems, I'm thankful that I experienced the things that I did, that way I'll be better prepared for the "Real World". I don't regret any of my experiences, they were all fun while they lasted.
Then there was Mr.Cheater himself. I met this guy my sophomore year in high school. I heard stories about this guy since I was in junior high and I promised myself that I would never get involved with a guy like him. Boy was I sadly mistaken again. This guy was best friends with my first cousin, he told him that he liked me and wanted me to give him a chance. I thought long and hard trying to be stern with my decision but I was soon suckered into him when he made a surprise visit to my home on the day of USM's homecoming 2006. He stood in my mother's living room begging her to allow him to date me also promising that he would never hurt me. What a lie! We started talking in late September just as friends and before you knew it we were going on a date. The date went well and I had more fun then I would have ever imagined. The following day, he asked me to be his girlfriend. With a lot of hesitation, I finally agreed. I was happy with my boyfriend and proud as ever. This guy had me on Cloud 99 and no matter what he did, I could see no wrong. He swept me off my feet, soon telling me the three words that my ears longed to hear, "I Love You". I knew we would be together forever, I was truly in love and no one could tell me other wise. Everything was just great, that is until his ex-girlfriends got involved. I was told that he was still "dating" her. I had always felt in my heart that there was a possibility but I refused to believe it. A couple months later, the ex became pregnant, swearing that my boyfriend was the father. Like any other person would, I removed myself from the relationship, never looking back. I never received closure and still to this day wonder, "what if"? I can't believe I was so blind but you live and you learn and I hold this experience close and would never forget the trouble and drama this relationship brought me.
After the cheating relationship, I didn't date again until I graduated from high school. This relationship didn't last long either. I was dating a high school junior who had no freedom what so ever. I can't say I was in love with him but more so infatuated with the fact that i was more experienced than my companion. I felt so much older and more mature but the relationship soon got boring. I had grown accustomed to going out on dates every weekend and spending time with my boyfriend's but this relationship was completely different. We never talked on the phone, went on dates or saw each other for long. The only time I would see him was in my 4Th period Child Development class that we both had together. So, like all my other relationships, I ended this one never looking back. I don't wonder about this one because I was merely attracted to the guy and the phase I was in when I liked him ended quickly. As I look back on my dating problems, I'm thankful that I experienced the things that I did, that way I'll be better prepared for the "Real World". I don't regret any of my experiences, they were all fun while they lasted.
Halloween/ Homecoming
From the time the month of October started, I was extremely excited about Halloween and the upcoming homecoming game. There would be parties all week long started on Thursday. However, my best friend planned to have her own Halloween partied at her home just because. Although I planned to go to the club on the Friday of Halloween for the big costume party hosted at Club Palace. I was really looking forward to it, everybody was planning to go. As time progressed, I still wasn't so sure as to what I was going to do. My first instinct was to go to the party and have to deal with my friend later but I felt that it was the wrong thing to do. To make a long story short, I missed out on the best party of the year to attend my best friend's boring Halloween party. A majority of the time all we did was talked until someone finally came up with the bright idea to watch scary movies. This idea didn't work out to well, do to the fact that we waited so late, all of the good scary movies were long gone so we ended up renting Vacancy and The Hitcher. I had already seen Vacancy so I wasn't looking forward to it at all and The Hitcher didn't interest me at all either. My night was ruined and I will never forget the night that I missed out on the hottest party of the year :-(.
Homecoming was a lot better. My best friend LaQuita came down from Georgia to attend the homecoming game with. We went shopping together and overall had a ball. The game was a lot of fun also, we laughed and enjoyed the game all in one. This night definitely made up for my ruined Halloween. After the homecoming game, we got dressed to go to Club Palace for an after party which would held a performance by our very own B.G. The performance wasn't good to me at all and the party certainly wasn't worth the 20 dollars I paid to get in but my bestie and I made it fun and enjoyed the time we spent together. After the club, we decided to go to our hot spot; Waffle House. This was always the spot we would eat out during the summer before she moved to Georgia so we relived the moment, ordering our signature means. I guess you can say that my weekend turned out to be okay, but seeing my bestie leave the following Monday made me extremely sad.
Homecoming was a lot better. My best friend LaQuita came down from Georgia to attend the homecoming game with. We went shopping together and overall had a ball. The game was a lot of fun also, we laughed and enjoyed the game all in one. This night definitely made up for my ruined Halloween. After the homecoming game, we got dressed to go to Club Palace for an after party which would held a performance by our very own B.G. The performance wasn't good to me at all and the party certainly wasn't worth the 20 dollars I paid to get in but my bestie and I made it fun and enjoyed the time we spent together. After the club, we decided to go to our hot spot; Waffle House. This was always the spot we would eat out during the summer before she moved to Georgia so we relived the moment, ordering our signature means. I guess you can say that my weekend turned out to be okay, but seeing my bestie leave the following Monday made me extremely sad.
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