Lover and/or Friends

There's this guy in my life whom I've known since the fourth grade. In the fourth grade, he was the lamest person in the world to me. I thought he was so weak, he would cry and he didn't talk that much. By the fifth grade, he started talking a little more and became more known but he was still known as the guy with asthma who would always get his asthma pump taken. He was popular but not in a good way. By six grade, he was becoming cuter and getting a little more known once the basketball team came out and people noticed his basketball abilities. He could really play. He always liked me but I never liked him back plus the fact that my brother whom he played basketball with every Saturday threatened his life and told him that if he ever tried to talk to me, he would kill him. I know that rather cruel but he was being a big brother. He would always tell my brothers other friend that I was going to be his girlfriend one day but of course I disagreed. We always stayed in touch but strictly on the friend level up until the 11Th grade. We didn't talk much but we would always speak. It wasn't until the 11Th grade that we exchanged numbers again, right after the both of us had broken up with our exes. Our past relationships were both really bad breakups so we kept our distance or at least tried and just talk on the level of friends. He asked me on a date and we started text messing a lot more. The just friends term soon became the potential boyfriend term. I started liking him but not enough to pursue a relationship so I talk to him on occasion but only when I was bored. Right before my eyes, he got another girlfriend, a freshman to our junior. I couldn't believe I let him slip away, too busy being consumed with my ex-relationship to notice that my dream relationship was getting away. By this time, he had everything I ever wanted in a guy. He was now a 6 foot 5 star basketball player on the varsity basketball team, averaging at least 15 points per game. I always knew he had it in him so I was very proud and even more attracted but I was way too late, he already had a girlfriend and was unfortunately committed. Jealous I was but what could I really do when all of this could've been mine but i let it get away and now I must suffer but never too much. Now we're the best of friends but we both know that were attracted to each other as more than friends but we're both scared to date because we don't want to mess up a perfectly good friendship to dating, so now i guess you can say that our status is lovers and friends. Most of the time I want more because I see so much potential with him, he knows me better than any better and I do love him although I will never admit it to him personally. I'm curious to see how a relationship between the two of us will work out but too scared to try. I want to marry this guy one day, he means so much for him and I want the best for him. I won't reveal his name but if he read this, he would instantly know who it's about :-)!